Thursday, October 2, 2008


I'm in the hard times right now in life.. but I am terribly grateful for my loved ones up here. They're great distractions. I've never cried so fast in my life before today. And then I don't think I have ever stopped the tears fast like that also. A'lyce, Alison, Ariel, Kami, Sterling and Ellie were in my living room. I couldn't cry in front of them. A'lyce saw me and so did Sterling, and that was already too much. Nobody should see me like this. I am a happy person. I want to be a happy person. I of course texted the first person I know to go to when I have these problems, and he tried to help, and he did, he distracted me. Thank you Michael. But then I got Ellie and she is really my lifesaver. I take care of her as if she is my child. Someone to take care of and try so hard not to cry in front of. Not to mention the wonderful JAAAKS that was in my living room at the time. I absolutely love the school I am going to. I can right now, as I am hurting, count my blessings and look at the bright side of things. My best friend from home just told me "God has his plan for you Jess, and for all the harship he tets you with, you will find your happiness." He is the best person to quote, because he can always cheer me up. Mikey, you are the only person I have talked to continuously since being up here. Granted the first month it wasn't that much, but lately, you have been there for me like no other. I haven't told you much of what has been going on, but today when I needed you, I could count on you. You were the first person, I told about how excited I was about my new major. I am so glad that we have been friends for over 4 years. Longest friend of my life right there. I am extremely lucky to have you as a friend. So, I have a little smile on my face right now as I think of my wonderful friends in my life right now. JAAAKS and Mikey. You guys are the best. Thank you so much for making me smile 24/7. Telling me daily how much you love me, and I tell you guys how much I love you .. MORE :D. I cannot wait for this weekend, when all of us drive down to Salt Lake City for conference. Once, I heard a talk that said that when you go to either, class, devotional, or just church, come prepared with a question that you need answered. I know this weekend at conference, my questions will be answered and my mind will be more at ease. The Lord is there for me, and is looking out for me everywhere I go. He knows the people I needed in my life, and has sent them to me and vice versa. I love you all. Thank you for being so strong.


Meet JAAAKS minus me.






1 comment:

Jami said...

I can't tell you how long it took me to figure out what <3 was. I'm a little slow! I love you! I hope you're feeling better after a crappy day. And I can beat up anyone, too, just give me the word!